right, so i wasn't updating? hehe..
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anyways, last sunday i borrowed bunch of books from pochay and i've already read three books. Drama Queen was the one i read yesterday. then i read two today, Tough Love and No Boyfriend Since Birth. the last book was quite interesting. i actually have the same thought as the author described the lead of the story. that was what i felt when i break up with my first boyfriend. syempre sanay ako sa relationships and the fact that i have no current relationship, it just doesn't seem like it.. so i was looking here and there for the right one to come. i always put in mind the cliche about no finding love, but letting it find you.. but then, i can't wait. and the result? i always end up with the wrong guy.. i mean, three guys. all of them was a waste. yan ang napapala ng nagmamadali. and then when i reached college, i just told myself to not focus on my lovelife but to focus on my studies since i'm already in college anyway. and gosh, tama nga ung cliche. love found me!! ayun, my present one is The One.. :)
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how about school? i hated my day today! i was so prepared for my DataComm exam. i reviewed all the definitions, enumerations and facts that i was expecting to see on my objective type exam. Sir Rey gave us the first part last monday which are pure computations. so today was the objective part. i was so disappointed, when i didn't saw words on the questionnaire.. but numbers.. IP Addresses. Oh my.. i stared on my paper for ten minutes and garnered my thoughts. i closed my eyes and tried to remember our past exam.. i almost forgot everything! i was too focused on the definitions and all. but after a while, i was able to answer them all. buti nlang pina-remember sakin ni God lahat. yey!
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after all, i am starting to stop my habit.. the habit of worrying too much. that was our CYF's goal for this week. to get rid of a annoying and a should-not-be-habit. well, i think that works because i am thinking positive.. except when i received my paper in my last Automata exam.. hay.. when will i ever see a three digit score on my yellow quiz booklet? hays.. ganito ba tlga kahirap ang college life ng isang mapuan? ugh. i am starting to accept the fact that i am going to fail on this subject.. with all the evidences of my long quizzes, surely, i will fail and have to take this subject all over again. hopefully not with my current professor again. please..
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but still, if ever that would happen, i know it's all part of His plan. thy will be done.
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another thing that bothers me is my boyfriend's studies next term. if ever he'll fail any subject this term, he might transfer schools. ayoko nun!! pero if ever he'll transfer, edi transfer din ako. sometimes, ayoko na din sa school eh.. nakaka.. hay. can't describe it. ang dali ka kasing ibagsak ng professors dito.. nakakahiya nga eh, simula elementary to highschool, i was the one who give good grades to my parents. tapos ngayong college, ako ang nagkakaron ng failing subjects, not my brothers. kaya mahirap.. with all the expectations and all. pero kaya ko pa.. as long as i have faith in myself and Him.
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kaya ko to.. kaya ko to.. sometimes, i even wonder if i just took up AB Comm and pursued my dream of being a writer in a glossy magazine.. hmm.. teka, hndi din. edi di ko nakilala si Nayj? hehe..
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there's a new specialization being opened in our course. Microsoft .NET.. interesting. if only it was available in the first place, i would have chosen it.. pero i don't know. Java is still in demand in the papers eh. bahala na, where God takes me.. :)
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i have another exam nanaman tomorrow. parang araw araw na yata ko may exam eh. o diba? yan ang masayang buhay ng mapuan. haay.. i wanna graduate naaa!! pero when i think about stepping into my 3rd year and graduating, the thing that bothers me is the Thesis. baka dahil dyan, madelay pa ko ng term. haaay.. kasi naman eh, maging semestral ka na kasi.. hmp.
