wish i could..

i envy a lot of people, especially girls, who can speak their minds. most of the time, i remained timid about how i feel because i am afraid of rejection from other people. sometimes what i want to tell can make me feel better but i'd rather not say it than make that person feel awful and hate me..
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i don't feel good today.. since yesterday, actually. hindi pwede sabihin eh. i wish i could but baka lalo lang lumala ung problem ko. but it's related from what was said on the above paragraph.
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for the first time in the whole process, i feel lonely and alone..
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i need strength, confidence and faith in myself. ang hirap coz i don't have anyone to talk to. that makes everything worse.