the angel wears mendrez.

i've been writing this program for weeks and until now, i haven't finished it yet. it's a computer shop program, nagcocompute ng time and stuff. kaso ang hirap lang kasi ung samin hindi connected sa LAN that would know when they timed in and timed out. para kasing calculator lang silbi ng program. un palang ung nagagawa and i'm still not satisfied with that. pati hindi ko pa magawa ung view available pc na method. hindi magawa ng array ko. tapos nakakainis gumawa kasi parang ang dami dami ko ng natype, hindi ko padin nagagawa ung gusto kong gawin. nkakapagod, nakakastress at nakakalosyang.
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i wanna go to back to my old self of loving books. before, weekly meron akong bagong book in my hand tapos isang araw lang tapos ko na kagad. tapos ang galing galing ko sa english nung mga panahong yon. tapos ngayon, nanghihinayang akong bumili kasi parang may mas worth buying pa dun kasi after mo na basahin di mo na nman un gagamitin diba? 300+ - 500+ pa nman prices ng books. it would be better if i borrow na lang. pero i like reading especially when i can't do anything.
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i really wish this term is already over. pag napasa ko na lahat ng projects, over na tlga. ung finals nman, hindi mashado dahil multiple choice lang un at once na nag-aral ka sa lahat ng quizzes, you'll get the answers already. feeling ko overloaded na ko sa information. wala akong bobo month kung saan wala akong iniisip. hindi pa yata nagiging blanko isip ko sa dami ng information na nabibigay samin araw araw.
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i also get pressured because almost everyone i know expects that i will be graduating this march or this june. but no. it's tentative pa until june dahil dun ko malalaman kung below 15 units nlang ako. madami pa akong kilay na susunugin. buti nlang makapal ang kilay ko. nyorks. pero definitely wala sa batch namin ang ggraduate ng march dahil june ang last term of the year. that's when my regular batchmates would be graduating already. and me? i have to extend. may two subjects akong ihahabol. if i would pass every subject that will come on the way. and i know i will. i should.
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i watched The Devil Wears Prada yesterday with my mom and i really enjoyed it. i like the clothes used on that movie, kasi un ung mga clothes na gagamitin ko when i get a decent job. haha. and i really really want to work with a fashion magazine, seriously. i wanna write stuff or a designer of computer blah blahs, do the layouts of each pages and the cover, or better yet, a fashion consultant. ahh, that would be a dream job if i would do all that. i even thought of starting a magazine tapos nagiisip din ng name. i can almost imagine the fun of doing it.
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my mom said i can take creative writing when i graduate and do it dahil un ang gusto ko gawin. i mean, if i like what i'm doing, i know i can handle the pressures, the deadlines and toxic commands of the boss. i should love my job. so that everyday, i have the strength to go to work and finish what i do. and everyday, i am looking forward to work. bahala na si God sa future ko..
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that's all folks!