flaunts and flaws

i wrote a poem titled, "LOVE", in our little school newspaper back when i was grade six. i think the paper was called, VOICE.
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Kuya Mark's course was Mass Communications. i always look up on his stories when he was still in college because it seems like his course was very interesting.
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i always like to read Sweet Valley, Baby Sitters Club, Goosebumps and other pocketbooks. because of this, it encouraged me to write short stories and i always show them to my classmates. they always tell me that my stories were great. they even ask me to write more for them to read.
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i became an essay-writer when i was in high-school. i was always the person that my section sends whenever there is an essay writing contest. but then, i did not win. and everytime our english or filipino teacher wants us to write an essay, i get excited and i write so much than what i think of. back then, i always got so much to say. i had many opinions, and my teachers admire me for that.
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i had a collection of magazines way back. i always get excited whenever a month begins because there will always be new issues of Candy, Seventeen, Allure and CosmoGirl. the first one i look up once i flip the pages of the magazines was the new fashion stuffs the month has to offer. next was the stories being written every month with a sequel and every other encouraging articles written in it.
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why am i saying this? because what i am right now is very different from what i was before. when i was recalling these talents i had, i realized that now, i think i am just average. i have interest to write stuff, to read stuff and to think so much. i became sort of lazy to read because i thought it's much better to stay in front of the pc and play games or search the internet. i said goodbye to books, papers and pens and welcomed the world of computers.
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the moment i borrowed Summit Books from my friend, Pochay, my whole world changed again.
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the pleasure of writing hunted me. it seems like everytime i watch a movie that shows magazine companys/writers, such as How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days and The Devil Wears Prada, i always envy the writers and all the staffs of those magazines they made. it made me realize that programming doesn't like me because:
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1. i hate the stress of programming until dawn just to get the formula of the computation.
2. i do not have patience on writing programs.
3. my logic is okay but my brain doesn't want to be twisted.
4. i do not love progamming.
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i am not saying that i am shifting my course or that i regret taking computer science. i learned a lot and because of it, i've grown so much. maybe it was the reason why i realized that i really love writing so much. i am going to graduate as a computer science student but i will dream to work in a magazine company. i really would.
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and lastly, why am i blogging anyway? i love writing.