last tuesday, i went home super tired from my usual routine at school. but this time, i was tired because i've been thinking about so many things. nung tuesday, wala pa kaming natatapos na project sa database tapos thursday na kaagad defense namin. super nagpapanic na ko, i do not have time to think of other stuffs anymore. i just want to break down and cry dahil ang dami dami kong dapat gawin within 2 days na natitira. pati hindi lang nman un ung subject ko. eto nasa isip ko habang nakasakay ako sa bus. ka-chat ko pa si nayj nun, sinabi pa niyang wala kaming laptop na pagggamitan sa defense at para i-configure ung project dahil hindi pa talaga tapos. naiiyak na talga ako. pagsakay ko sa sasakyan namin nung sinundo ako ni ama sa gate, i can't help it pero tumutulo na ung luha ko dahil sa worries. tumingin nlang ako sa bintana para di mahalata ni ama kasi nahihiya akong sabihin. pagdating ko sa bahay, my mom noticed that i was wearing a long face. she asked what was wrong pero di ko muna sinagot. i went immediately to my room para ma-lessen ung bigat ng dibdib ko. i cried there for like, 5 minutes until i get dressed. i thought okay na ko.. but when i told my mom what was really wrong with me, bumuhos lahat ng luha ko. siguro if you guys were there, you would think that i was like a child. sinabi ko na i needed a laptop for my project dahil if there is none, babagsak talaga ko sa database. nagpanic nga si ina e, she texted one of her officemates kung saan puwede mag-rent ng laptop. meron pala sa SM pero before that night ended, nayj texted me that val's laptop was fixed already and we can work on it by tomorrow.
the next day, we were adding the datas to our database para may laman na. coz our program won't work without it. then, pag-check namin sa program namin, hindi ma-connect sa ADo, which is the connection of our program to SQL. so panic nnman.. tapos may finals pa ko sa math that day and habang sinasagutan ko un, i can't even think of answers dahil ang dami ko nnmang iniisip.. tapos ung mas mabigat dun is yung sinabi sakin ni nayj before we took the exam.. na this may be his last term if he would have a failing subject. kasi during that time, hindi pa nagwowork ung project niya sa logic circuits. so i really can't think.. but i am really trying to focus coz i don't wanna fail this one. but i am also thinking what would happen if nayj won't be studying in this school anymore.. and not only that, hindi niya din alam if he can still study next term if he's going to fail. it's either switch schools or not study at all..
after ng math, java exam nman.. buti nlang madali ung exam.. my mind was able to function that time. after ng java, we visited our database classmates and asked for their defense, kung anung nangyari. sabi nila, madali lang daw.. it doesn't have to be functional basta it is connected to SQL. e ung nga ung problema namin, hndi connected sa SQL.. then buti nlang tinulungan kami ni JK, he told us a shortcut to make our project work. and it did! hindi namin inexpect na kami din pala makakagawa ng project namin at the last minute. i was the one responsible for the design, nayj for the functionality, paolo and val for the SQL connection.. yipee! it was done! pati pala ung project ni nayj sa logic circuits tapos na din! so nung time na un, okay na kami. last tuesday kasi nung pauwi kami hindi kami nagpapansinan.. hndi dahil galit kami sa isat isa pero kasi ang dami naming iniisip.. no time for lambing or kulitan.. and i am so glad that we were able to make it. pati malakas namana loob ko na walang ibabagsak si nayj ngayon term. i've been praying really hard talaga..
later would be our defense.. at 2pm.. so i wish it would go well. ito nlang ang problema ko e, then i would switch my thoughts to College CYF's Christmas Party and our tropa's EK Escapade next week. exited na koooo!!
tapos.. it's our second anniversary!! yehey!!
so many things to look forward to.. so little time.. :)
