being 20.

it's hard to absorb the fact that i am not a teen anymore. i mean, being a teen makes you feel so young and privileged because you are YOUNG. but being 20, it makes so much difference. it makes you feel so mature that you should be ready, sooner or later, of the responsibilities and decisions you are going to make. but at least when i turned 20, may mga karamay na ko. hehe..

anyway, it was 2 weeks from now when i felt something in my breasts. it was a cyst. the moment i felt it, i immediately became scared and nervous of what it would be. it took some time before i told my father about it to have it checked. and yesterday, we went to the doctor to have it checked. i admit i've been crying about it because i was scared that it might lead to cancer. when we reached the hospital, i can't control my tears. but according to the doctor, it's a benign cyst, she told me that it is 99.9% benign. meaning, not cancerous at all. hindi nman siya actually kelngang i-remove. sabi din sakin ni ina kapag daw uncomfortable na ako, saka ko ipatanggal. un kasi ung nangyari sa kanya before. buti na lang kahit malayo siya, tinatawagan niya ko para lang ipaalam sakin kung anung dapat gawin. what more can i ask for? ang supportive ng parents ko.

thank you nga pala kay ate katsy, ang sweet niya to tell me to hang on and not be scared about the whole situation. i love you ate kat!

the day before i was checked, i was really praying hard about it. God is sooo good. bago ako magpa-check-up kahapon, weeks before that, sobrang kabado na talaga ko kasi natatakot ako about it. but thank God, nadetect kaagad and it was not bad.