irreplaceable

- LSS song ko.. hehe.. "to the left, to the left.."

natatakot ako sa future.. ewan ko ba, parang i have this feeling that i might not get the right job, that i might be one of the unemployed citizens in the Philippines or i won't be paid well.. i have this fear of not being able to enjoy the life that i enjoy while i am still "palamunin" sa bahay.. but really, i always think about that. but i swoosh those thoughts on my head because that would just give negativity on everything that i do.

i also hope that i would be able to balance my money in the future. since malapit ng dumating ang time na i would be living on my own, i am now starting to be thrift on everything and to save. nakakainis nga kasi nawala nnman ung pangarap kong magkaron ng mp3.. kasi nga nawala ung celfone ko, so imbis na mp3 ang iipunin ko, celfone na lang.

until now, nappressure padin ako for being the only kid here at home who is still studying and is still dependent on my parents. like if i did something wrong, parang i feel like pabigat ako at wala akong karapatang gumawa ng mali kasi i am still under their territory. and if i buy something, it seems like sobrang materialistic ako sa paningin nila. my brother's aren't like that kasi nga, guys sila.. they do not have much needs than girls do.. RIGHT GIRLS? tapos all the money issues are being referred to my tuition fee in mapua. kulang nlang sabihin ko na, puwede pag nag-aaway kayo about my tuition wag niyo nlang iparinig sakin? kasi sobrang pressured talaga..

gusto ko mag overload ng mag overload ng subjects ko.. pero nagdadalawang isip ako kasi gusto ko nga sabay kami ni nayj sa subjects.. except na lang if papayag siya. hehe.. i want to graduate! parang mas ang dami kong iniisip..

anu pa? one thing that i could relate to the title: nayj is irreplaceable.. :) (the phrase says it all.)