the love is gone.

oops, it's not what you're thinking!

the love i felt for programming is gone. i don't know why. i don't have the energy to do machine problems in our computer laboratory anymore. wala na.. poof.

ang dami kong gustong gawin, pero hindi kasama ung programming dun. well, syempre gusto ko bumalik ung pagkahilig ko kasi nga, sayang naman ung pinag-aralan ko. i don't wanna end up confused. tignan niyo si kuya mark, he likes cars and his work involves cars and he loves it. pati i think he's gonna be promoted into another position. pero, not sure pa. see? that's what i'm talking about. kapag love mo ung work mo, it doesn't feel like work. gusto ko yung ganun..

what are the things that i love to do ba? designing stuffs, arts and crafts, fashion, music and writing. ang layo sa computer science! hay.. confused nga ako.. e ayoko maging confused kasi i don't want to end up undecisive about my work on a certain company kasi baka sila ang ma-confuse sakin, i might get fired.. ack!

pero ayoko muna actually isipin ung work. kasi pag iniisip ko mejo natatakot ako. i am also scared of the responsibilities that i am going to have as i get older. syempre dumadami un, pati problema dumadami. but of course, i will always remain strong on everything.

last tuesday, i emailed my mom about my school standings. ung mga quizzes ko and stuff. syempre i told her about me always having the highest score in our rizal subject. tapos ung third to the highest nman sa software engineering. i thought she's going to be happy. aba, akalain mo nga naman, she's not surprised about it daw! i have HER GENES daw kasi. hehe.. galing no? sabi pa, "hayaan mo na, tayo lang nman ang nag-uusap." oops, nalaman na ng blogger readers ko. hehe.. kakatuwa si ina.

akala ni tito hiltor mas matanda ako kay jop. ganun??? wah.